Body Project part III: Baby Blues

I feel like everyone I know is pregnant, and being pregnant myself is all I can think about. I decided to put off my next pregnancy for 6 months because of... you guessed it: pain. I can't explain how many things this pain has taken away from me, and I hate it when I am forced to change major plans like having a baby because of it.

I have taken this time to give the Lyrica a try and to focus on my health so that I can be as healthy and strong as possible for the next pregnancy. The pills are a great help, but if I forget to take it the pain comes back full force. I was hoping that reducing my pain levels with the pills would help to break the cycle of pain causing poor sleep and stress on the body, creating more pain. I was hoping that I could go without the medication eventually, if I got my body in order over the next few months. It's only been a month but I'm already feeling hopeless and like I'm wasting my time. I have been dealing with this for so long that it really seems impossible that it would ever go away.

The book I read about curing Fibromyalgia says that if I can eliminate my triggers then my symptoms will go away. It's so simple- why didn't I think of that?! Unfortunately the trigger that caused this whole disaster is the RSD/CRPS in my left leg, and that is never going to go away, since I don't have the guts to try the Ketamine coma any time soon. So now what do I do?

The lyrica gives me a significant reduction in overall pain levels and that is really exciting. Nothing I have ever taken before has worked this well, and I feel so lucky that it works for me. I have more energy these days, and it's only now that I feel better that I fully realize how limited my life has been. Since Lyrica causes birth defects in little mice, I have to stop taking it before the next baby. My biggest worry is that spending all this time without my full customary level of pain is going to ruin my ability to deal with it.

So this pretty much sums up my worries about when to get pregnant. Don't even get me started on if I should do it! What is I do have FMS and what if it does have a genetic component? Those are pretty big ifs to base such an important decision on.